If I were to entitle this message…
Just kidding. If you grew up going to church, as I did, you probably heard that introduction to the preacher’s message a time or twenty.
However…since I do need a title for this blog post, let’s just call it Exit Right.
For a while I tried to build a platform through blogging and Facebook to grow a speaking ministry. I had some results. But then I just got tired of it. Tired of the push. Tired of strategizing. Tired of how it made me feel. Even though I felt, and still feel, that I have insight to offer, more “teach” and more “preach” in me, I backed away from promoting it.
The day I made the decision to stop building a platform in hopes of developing a speaking ministry was not a day. It took place on many days over the course of months in which, little by little, I laid it down. It took letting it go over and again until I felt with sure conviction it was surrendered, white flag and all.
Today marks six years that we got the diagnosis of stage 4 brain cancer in our son. In my determination to follow the leading of the Lord in what I’ve been calling August Redemption, I shared in a live broadcast on Periscope how there is hope in Christ even in child loss and grief. It was raw and unpolished. There are no do-overs on Persicope. It just is what it is. From a “speaking ministry platform,” it was a train wreck. In fact, I almost deleted it but I didn’t because the ONLY reason I did it was a prompting from the Lord.
You can watch the replay here.
Afterwards I went for a run. I prayed and cried and told the Lord, “It’s over. It’s done. I officially lay the “speaking” down. In effect I walked off the platform and exited right. Immediately I heard a word in my spirit.
I am no longer a Speaker. I am a testifier – a testifier of God’s goodness. A testifier of Who He Is and what He has done for me.
A testifier – one who has been in the flood and the fire yet alive and well to tell of God’s great love and grace that is my strength! And it’s just now in writing this that I realize my sharing on Periscope today was not what a “speaker” might do but exactly what a “testifier” does. Amen. In fact, you might even call me an expert witness. Amen and Amen.
When God redeems and frees you from what has tried to stop you, He brings you out with more than what you went in with – more strength, more anointing, more purpose and more power!
In my pain…he has given me the power of testimony.
Amen.Written by Melanie Dorsey - Visit Website