Read the first part of “Questions, Answers and God” here.
Just two days earlier on this same stretch of sand along the Gulf of Mexico I had gone for a run. In an effort to quiet my mind and unburden my heart I talked to God as I ran. I rehearsed my current situation telling God what He already knew about my frustration and hurt feelings, my desire to do the right thing and my fear that this season would last longer than I could.
“How can we turn this around?” I’d asked.
His immediate and loving response, “I’ve been waiting for you to ask that” was not at all what I expected. I had hoped He would reveal a plan of action a la “Three Steps to Calm Your Storm” or “Five Stones to Slay Your Giant.”
I was waiting for a heavenly to do list from his hand to my head. Instead He began to reveal His character and His heart of unfailing love for me. I glimpsed His Creator knowledge of every fiber of my being known in the same way He knows each grain of sand on the beach I run.
God was waiting on me. Not impatiently but lovingly. He was in no rush for me to arrive at the place of humility. Up until then I had tried to do the right thing in this new thing in the strength of my own willpower and sense of fairness. But my own strength was no match for the current I was trying to swim against. And fairness in this broken world? That concept only exists in the minds of naive children.
That day a different perspective was to be slowly revealed like the waves of the Gulf waters rolling in gently on a still day.
So how did I ask the “right” question, the fitting question to then only get it wrong a couple of days later?
I think the answer is found in my default nature which wants to figure things out and fix what’s wrong. Set a goal and have a plan.
In other words my flesh response is found in doing while in this season God is teaching me the Spirit Life fulfillment in being.
Sometimes the hardest lessons to learn – the ones that go against our nature, our natural self – are the ones that take us the most time to learn. The waves roll in and the waves roll out. God is in no hurry. He waits til we learn our lessons by heart.
(There’s more to come.)
Edited to add this link. Twenty-four hours or so after posting the story above, I came across this website quite by “accident”. You must see these amazing pictures of grains of sand greatly magnified. It gives deeper meaning to my statement, “I glimpsed His Creator knowledge of every fiber of my being known in the same way He knows each grain of sand on the beach I run.”Pin It